Grief

Scriptures:  Job 16:6 - Though I speak, my grief is not relieved; and if I remain silent, how am I eased?    Proverbs 14:13 - Even in laughter the heart may sorrow, and the end of mirth may be grief.

While it is true that people need air, food, water, clothing, and shelter, to survive, we must also add to that list relationships -- because it is a strong or weak person who is able to thrive in the absence of a spouse.

When my husband passed, it was so hard even when I knew he was not in any more pain and suffering, to actually let him go.  But I knew I had no control over that.  He was ready to go.  He is now in the presence of the Lord.  His faith has become sight.   Grief is the process and emotions that everyone experiences when they lose a loved one such as a spouse, parents, or a child.   This could even take place after a divorce, or a loss of a relationship.  Another term of grief is bereavement.  I suppose this word is kind of soft instead of death.  They all lead to the same thing.  

Since I’ve loss Ray, I have been spending a lot of time reading and studying the word of God.  Even though Ray isn’t in anymore pain, it still is so unreal that he is not here anymore.   I’ve often wondered how it felt to lose a spouse when I see different friends of mine who have lost their spouse.  Some have reached out to me, and we have talked.  It helped a lot.  One of my dear sisters even said to me to get back to writing, and that should help with my time of grieving.  Most of the pain I’ve experienced, my doctors said, it’s part of the grieving process.  Wow, that’s interesting.  I have enjoyed my time with the Lord.  Isaiah 54:5 says “For your Maker is your husband, the Lord of hosts is His name; And your Redeemer is the Holy One of Israel; He is called the God of the whole earth.  6 For the Lord has called you Like a woman forsaken and grieved in spirit… “

Yes, the Lord is going to be my husband for now.  I know He will be the best husband I’ll ever have.  To God Be the Glory!

Prayer:   Dear Lord, thank You for being all that I need You to be.  I know that there have been times when I have not been all that You have wanted me to be.  I ask for forgiveness.  Father, You have been a source of strength for me when I need You to be.  I give You all of the praise!  In Jesus’ name I pray, Amen.

(by Debbie Whye)