Constantly Fighting: Am I Okay If He Takes Control Even Though It May Not Go My Way?

Our Genesis Bible Fellowship Youth and Young Adults (Gen. B.FY) have somethings to share and the Biblical principles they applied and/or gleaned from them. Saints, be encouraged and please encourage our Gen. B.FY.

Constantly fighting God over the idea of control is an ongoing battle between what you know and what you believe. As I have grown up, I have constantly battled between my needs and wants and sometimes through this asking God for my wants, we don’t always get along. In turn, my heart becomes hard, and He pulls me back to listen to Him so He can show me His way.

Through the last couple of years, I have entered this constant cycle of battling with the Lord based upon wanting my way. There is no ‘in between’ when it comes to trusting someone and inside this area, I failed many times when trusting the Lord. When I was little, I thought it was so easy, but as I have grown, I quickly learned. Especially when it comes to if I had this job, or if I had this amount of money, or anything we want as humans. This is an issue of trusting God‘s will, and the issue of worrying if He really has our best interest. In times of sorrow like the death of someone close to me and trials like I have never experienced before, I leaned on my own understanding, and would begin to worry about if this happened or if I could do this. Instead of turning to God and leaning on Him and trusting him rather than letting my mind think, ‘I am capable of doing better.’

Every time I get into a state of worrying, I hear this Lecrae song quoting Matthew 6:26 asking us, “Why do we worry if God feeds the birds of the sky? Why do we worry if God has come through time and time and again, even if it’s not our way?” So I begin to wonder, what keeps driving me through this cycle? I sat down and the answer was right before me, the idea of control and my faith in God.

Prayer: My Lord, help me to lean on You as my first action in times of trouble. I asked You to give me more opportunities to showcase my faith in You. I want to thank You for Your grace and Your mercy for the times when I fell short. I need You all of the time, not just in times of sorrow and not just in times of joy. Through this I pray that You would give me the ability to be able to grow through my walk and my faith in You, Jesus. Amen.
By Bro. Joshua Buck